mighty hungry.

F**CK typos

i aint editing
and fkcuk puncutation too
who needs them niggas
anyway...

i'm acting the part right now real hard

'cause my chest aint ni it

i havent made a beat in like 2 or 3 months

i tried the other day on my shiny new $2000 macbook + $untold hundreds other equipment and i failed miserably

i know why i failed but still, that doesnt bolster the self esteem at this point

i need somethin to crack soon man, before i do

((yes, it's one of those blog updates, for the few of you that do read this))

i'm losing steam
being that i'm currently displaced
and without all my sounds and without a turntable and without my beloved fruityloops (i'll be resolving that tonight btw)

the entire beat hustle/music grind completely disinterests me
not bored
more like put off
the self deprecating realities it makes me consider make me sick to my stomach

am i not good enough? am i not good? am i bad?? if so, did i really spend the last five years trying to turn profits on this non-talent i have? WHEREDOESTHATLEAVEMENOW?!?!??!

yes i'm being a sobby phag right now

i just want to slap music in the mouth

music is my boo but right now it's treating me like it never knew me

and i don't like it one bit

if you do music and you think your music career is on a pathway to nowhere, come read this blog and realize that hey, YOU AINT DOIN SO BAD AFTERALL

sometimes ijust wanna take my brain out and throw it in the ocean, have a friend drive me to the brain store and buy an empty one, start this process all over again

jesus christ
(where are u?)

YALL AINT READY!

quick hits.



i bought that, which is gonna help me get my shit back on track with the beats, and i can start laying these OMGz verses down too, as the preamps on this are supposed to be awesome.

worthwhile investment.

so far the laptop ain't made me a dime. that's not gonna work!

should be changing soon though.

keep your eyes open for the new new shit.

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i love the way ye writes. amazingly, of all the dope mcs currently doing it, he's one of the few that makes me just wanna get up and write some dope shit.

i think it's cause he writes shit with total disregard for convention (and proper english); it totally matches his production styles and overall aesthetic, over the top braggadocio and peacock-esque antics. but he manages to get in little nuggets of poetic jewelry amidst the flim flam he be launching. it's just highly enjoyable to listen to.

i need to get to that point where it's just like, i hear a beat, and i say whatever the fuck i want to, no regard for the mc rules, no interest in convincing somebody i'm the second coming of whoever, just say what's on my mind in whatever form it decides to present itself and be happy with it, accept it as it is. at this point it takes me forever to write a verse and then i hate it after i'm done because i'm so particular about every syllable... i don't even take myself seriously as an mc anymore because i'm so unimpressed with my output.

anyway.

just some random thoughts... i might try to get some bonkers off the wall shit out over the weekend. we'll see.

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Labels: etc., raplife, stick to beats

from my macbook!!!

i am quite excited.

HUGE outlay for the bastard, but hell.

i'm mobile, powerful, & cool now.

in the next few weeks i'll cop the sound interface and another external, wipe my other PC clean and get started on converting that one into a digital tape machine, with Pro Tools LE 7.3.

the macbook is gonna be my day to day-er for the time being, as well as pre production (what i bought it for). eventually i may get another barebones vista laptop for simple stuff like email and web stuff.

now i'ma need a subscription to Mac User.

i am so f$cking cool.
not.