you know what the craziest part of this shit is?
besides no money of course-
it's the constant fluctuation. the back and forth, the up and down, the good and bad happening at the same damn time, and all the confusion that this sort of constant bipolarity creates. i feel like i'm about to type a lot of the same stuff i've typed in previous entries, and i'm running out of new ways to say it.
point is, i think i'm getting better at maintaining a positive approach to things even when shit gets mega funky. even when i'm stuck at work, unable to make beats, i find ways to support the movement. i send out emails and try to build relationships. i do dry-runs shopping for equipment, create budgets, assess my projected purchasing power and try to create other avenues to supplement the income. i take a little time out to write hooks to beats now, 'cause that's supposedly a way to become a more marketable commodity. i read about how to put chords together, do a little music history, etc etc.
when i had that deal crash & burn at the top of this month, i didn't weep, and i didn't mourn too long. i didn't let myself. i couldn't... there's too much to complete, and i'm looking at the whole venture like there's a window that's slowly closing. moping about shit like that is a waste of time. and even though it's a substantial hurtpiece, $2000 isn't a devestating finishing blow. man, please. the checks i'm after make that look like pocket lint. like a night on the town.
anyway...
not many new developments since the last real entry about my music.
i've spent more time just playing around with different combinations of drum sounds that i have stored away on my drives. honestly, i have a LOT. i'd say 75-85% of them are usable, quality samples that i have tucked away. and you don't realize it, but drum sounds basically command the feel of a song. and these are just one-shot samples that i have on the drive, i've also got synths and the sampletank/sonik synth samplers with kits built in, as well as these e-mu sound fonts (proteus, phatt and orbitz) that also have drum kits. it's been fun exploring them. i could make millions of songs literally, before i would successfully cover half the potential combinations all these pieces offer. good drums are a producer's best friend, man. so, theoretically i should be golden.
been trying my hand at more r&b flavored pieces, too. something tells me that my r & b shit might pop before the hip hop shit does. dunno why. but i'm writing hooks to these tracks now. even enlisted the help of some of my comrades to write with me, and lay down the vox for some stuff, so that i can have a skeleton for singers reference off of. i'd do it myself, but-- nah. i'll get a professional. lol
you know, it's crazy. it's may 17th, and as much as i be complaining in this blog about where i haven't been, and what i haven't been paid, and every other ostensible failure i may have had--
i'm steady making progress!
thousands upon thousands of people have heard my music this year. that's amazing! i'm in the credits on projects.
couple that with contributing to a few more joints, including raw poetic's solo... like, i'm doing okay. obviously the goal is to start seeing money as a result of the work i'm doing, but like i was telling keshia last night, money is usually the last thing to come. you will get props, accolades, awards, shouts, love, groupies and pussy, free gear, whatEVER-- before you start collecting regular sizable checks that can support your needs. god forbid your needs and your wants.
so i gotta be patient, and keep building up the credits. credits are my resume.
*sigh*
just a lil' off the chest. let's get money, niggas.
it's the constant fluctuation. the back and forth, the up and down, the good and bad happening at the same damn time, and all the confusion that this sort of constant bipolarity creates. i feel like i'm about to type a lot of the same stuff i've typed in previous entries, and i'm running out of new ways to say it.
point is, i think i'm getting better at maintaining a positive approach to things even when shit gets mega funky. even when i'm stuck at work, unable to make beats, i find ways to support the movement. i send out emails and try to build relationships. i do dry-runs shopping for equipment, create budgets, assess my projected purchasing power and try to create other avenues to supplement the income. i take a little time out to write hooks to beats now, 'cause that's supposedly a way to become a more marketable commodity. i read about how to put chords together, do a little music history, etc etc.
when i had that deal crash & burn at the top of this month, i didn't weep, and i didn't mourn too long. i didn't let myself. i couldn't... there's too much to complete, and i'm looking at the whole venture like there's a window that's slowly closing. moping about shit like that is a waste of time. and even though it's a substantial hurtpiece, $2000 isn't a devestating finishing blow. man, please. the checks i'm after make that look like pocket lint. like a night on the town.
anyway...
not many new developments since the last real entry about my music.
i've spent more time just playing around with different combinations of drum sounds that i have stored away on my drives. honestly, i have a LOT. i'd say 75-85% of them are usable, quality samples that i have tucked away. and you don't realize it, but drum sounds basically command the feel of a song. and these are just one-shot samples that i have on the drive, i've also got synths and the sampletank/sonik synth samplers with kits built in, as well as these e-mu sound fonts (proteus, phatt and orbitz) that also have drum kits. it's been fun exploring them. i could make millions of songs literally, before i would successfully cover half the potential combinations all these pieces offer. good drums are a producer's best friend, man. so, theoretically i should be golden.
been trying my hand at more r&b flavored pieces, too. something tells me that my r & b shit might pop before the hip hop shit does. dunno why. but i'm writing hooks to these tracks now. even enlisted the help of some of my comrades to write with me, and lay down the vox for some stuff, so that i can have a skeleton for singers reference off of. i'd do it myself, but-- nah. i'll get a professional. lol
you know, it's crazy. it's may 17th, and as much as i be complaining in this blog about where i haven't been, and what i haven't been paid, and every other ostensible failure i may have had--
i'm steady making progress!
thousands upon thousands of people have heard my music this year. that's amazing! i'm in the credits on projects.
couple that with contributing to a few more joints, including raw poetic's solo... like, i'm doing okay. obviously the goal is to start seeing money as a result of the work i'm doing, but like i was telling keshia last night, money is usually the last thing to come. you will get props, accolades, awards, shouts, love, groupies and pussy, free gear, whatEVER-- before you start collecting regular sizable checks that can support your needs. god forbid your needs and your wants.
so i gotta be patient, and keep building up the credits. credits are my resume.
*sigh*
just a lil' off the chest. let's get money, niggas.
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